One more year of rebuilding
Well, well, what a roller coaster week it's been.
Growth Camp! Phew...got it outta the way, but more rubbish to come in the coming weeks. I WILL SURVIVE.
Some thoughts about the big game this week. The boys played a really SOLID game against Zhong Hua. This is the team who had whacked us in November. But despite all the trials and tribulations we've gone through, i think the C boys have really come a long way. For this match, i really finally saw them fighting for what meant so much for them. Yes, there were mistakes. But the resolve was never in doubt. It was a splendid performance. However, the best was still not to be, as we still succumbed 20-25 in the last set....a very heartbreaking 1-2 loss...which means we are out...once again.
How many more years of defeat can i take? Every year, it's the same disappointment. Coming so very near, yet not quite enough to breach the barrier for a Top 4 finish. A fellow colleague asked me to write something to say to the whole team. So i told her it was not necessary. I believe all my boys know the amount of effort i put into trainings. I acknowledge their commitment and efforts too. But i just don't think i want to congratulate and support these efforts until we have really and truly achieved something. I trust that they will understand this...let's save all the congratulatory words for a REAL victory...when i believe it will be all so sweet.
Hence, i think this time round, i want to go all out. Target for 2009. Double qualification for both CBSS VB teams. Every year during this period, i always have to sit down after defeat, sifting through the pieces, planning for the next battle. I think we have come closer this year. B boys this year is def stronger than B boys last year. C boys this year? Well, they have once again taught me that the game's not over till the ball drops. I suppose i should be happy we are inching closer...one lucky break, that's all we need....but i'm not leaving that to luck next year. 2009, here we come!
A sibeh Dulan day
Well well dear blog. Here to vent my frustrations here AGAIN. Why the hell must it always be my job that gives me such 'pleasure'?!
Damn! Just heard the most preposterous argument today!
BlackSari-ofDeath: You, BIGASS, have to be punished for your self righteous thinkings! You have hurt someone again and ought to be punished!
Light -sabre-wielder: But if two people hurt each other, shouldn't they both be PUNISHED?! There was damage to both parties anyway.
BlackSari-ofDeath: No! What rubbish is this!? If the other party reacted in self-defence, there should not be punishment.
Light -sabre-wielde: Great! So i should just provoke this dark abomination who's spouting rubbish now into hitting me and when i slice her ass off, i would be guilt-free. Self defence anyway! What a great and brilliant idea! WOW! Eureka!
Seriously, that was really the most ludicrious shit i have heard all year. i an indeed "churning" at how some higher-ups can have absolutely no sense at all. We all make mistakes but WTH! Mistakes of this level when you are heading an organisation and are supposedly more experienced!? SIAO AH!
SIBEH DULAN STILL signing off
CNY Complains and Kao Pehs
Yoz all! Here I am, stuck in a friend's place while they are playing that silly tiled game we call mahjong...so i decided to bask in my loneliness and anti-social behaviour.
Sigh, these days have not been good. Kinda sianz about my new career 'development'. But at least i'm clearer now about what I really want outta it now. Family health hasn't been great too. But i believe my Father will overcome the trials he has been subjected to.
Then, there is the EXIT. Sigh, though i acknowledge that when i got the grouping, i half-expected this would be the eventual result, it's still a bitter pill to swallow. But whatever it is, I MUST stay positive. We will get what we want, it's just a matter of time. We'll come back STRONGER next year. All you South zone schools, BEWARE!
Chanced upon one of my collegue's Blog entry about a certain feathered adversary. I must say i totally agree. How i wish i had a bow and arrow to shoot that black little bird down. How many more little chicks is she gonna cause to crash? It might be simple to just MAKE a stupid fuc*ed up decision but we have to live thru the pain of seeing them fall.......SIAN!...ok enough depression. Where's my voodoo doll?!
MY GODZZZZZ......sch's gonna start again
Damn it! Just had the irritating idea swimming around in my head all of a sudden. Holiday is OVER! Yes! OVER!!!! At least for me it is lah. Goodbye to all the mad trainings at ungodly hours, and hello( again) to all the insanelt early, and also ungodly hours again. I must really give it to the students. How the hell do they keep their blogs in order man!? I am struggling to even put stuff up, like Tagboards and Imeem...sheeesh....Hope no student ever finds this blog......
Anyway, just wanna hao lian my VBALL banner!
WAHHAHHAA....Other CCAs, dun be jealous! Get working!
Pessimism: my greatest flaw
Hi Hi HI!...though i think no one in this wretched world reads my blog. HAHA!
Just back from Vball camp. To say i am tired would be an understatement! Wah lau eh! Can die sia!
But it's been a great camp really. Guess we achieved all that we set out to, plus much more.
Know what? The kids, especially the c boys have really taught me something. To be absolutely honest, i'd really lost all hope in them, especially after Melvyn's transfer. But seeing how they have played for this camp, i think i ought to be ashamed of myself. Perhaps Melvyn's departure was a blessing in disguise. If he hadn't transferred, i would never have given people like Rui lin and Zhong wei more chances. They have really risen to the occasion. The whole C boys team has! EVEN MY BLUR SOTONG AH CHUN! Guess they realise that they no longer have an ace attacker to rely on and now have to be better in all other aspects. Sigh. I should really learn from this. In all that we do, resilience is one thing that we would always remind ourselves of. I think for a short moment i'd lost that belief in them. Thanks for showing me the way back, young ones! The chance to qualify next year is still there. Let's do it.
What about the B boys? Wow...not bad also. Sometimes, i wonder if i am too impatient to want to achieve results. Afterall, we are really a young team, of barely 3 years. When i see the boys at the stage they are in now, i guess it's ok to give myself a pat on the back and say well done! Of course there have been hiccups along the way and some "fallen angels". But the majority of them are turning out just fine. NO ONE gave me any trouble at all this camp. Punctuality was mostly adhered to and i could see better initiative as compared to last year. So perhaps all the long lectures and incessant nagging does play a part in moulding these young people's minds. Looking at them now, i think i am on the right track. Volleyball is just a tool to educate and guide them along. AT least till they are truly ready and stable enough to make right (hopefully more right than wrong) decisions for themselves.
Well well....enough assholic rantings!!! Bloody hell...is anybody even reading this?! If you are pls add comments or tag leh! SI Beh Sian Leh!
A concoction of mixed feelings
Damn! Life can be such a roller coaster sometimes! All was nice nice nice and nice when i was in BKK. The moment i come back, troubles come down on me. Wow, guess trouble really never strikes singly! can die!
Today a bombshell really dropped on me. Melvyn told me he is most likely gonna transfer. Well, frankly, i am very disappointed! How can i not be? Without him, the C boys are virtually left with NO ATTACK, just 1 month before the zonals. I think this effectively kills our chances. It's like one whole year's effort spent on training and developing him, the countless scoldings, pep-talks...all come to naught. How am i supposed to feel!? Happy for him? Betrayed? Damn!!! This is too much to bear man. Sianz to the power of infinity.
Then there is the issue of HODship. Si beh sianz! Take, or dun take. Both sides seem like a green field with hidden lalang. Looks green and nice, but potentially painful to bear if u r not careful.
If i take it, i might, or should i say most likely won't be able to really coach as much as i like any more. If i don't take it, the bloody chance might never come again. Another dilemma! SIANZ!!!! Seems like whichever decision i make, i'll rue the other missed one.
Wah lau eh. really no end end end!!!!!! Shang Tian ah, Gei Wo Yi Ge Da An Ba!
I'm BAAACK
Dunno who in the world's gonna read this at this ungodly hour. But wth! It's MY BLOG! I am happy to post at whatever silly time i LIKE. Well, back from Tom Yum Land! I always enjoy my trips tp Tom Yummy. Good food, good shopping, pretty girls ( SG girls really pale in comparison man...time to improve) nice malls, nice people!
Well, not to say that the yearly shopping ritual I subject myself to doesn't come with it's costs. My feet have just been absolutely and truly PUNISHED! My soles are aching away from the endless walking. Adidas search it is! My god! I swear FBT center is gonna be a yearly pilgrimage for me from now on. I was really spoilt for choice! Didn't even know where to start looking man! Endless designs to choose from, just an overload of colours! If you are keen on FBT, there are even MORE choices! My goodness....$$$$ fly...but the silly boys will benefit lah! They get nice jerseys which players from other schools pay loads for.
Ok OK....shall post more later....tired tired tired.
Those silly people better not complain about the design i chose. Imagine lugging 75 jerseys back to SG. I am so damn proud of meself. Not happy? Go wear a bikini for the matches!
